Hey everyone, well school is starting to give me a major head ache and finals are coming. Tomorrow i have 2, Friday i have 2, and Monday i have 2. I just hope that my little extra credit project for Spanish will pull my grade up in there. It's not on constuction paper or paper board so that will deduct points but it's 100 points so yeah lol. Jordan and i aren't together anymore but we are still good friends. I got my class ring but i haven't gotten a picture of it for show. Hopefully that will come later. Still at my moms and am starting to get sick of it. Too much time with her. This week is going by fast now that i have my step-moms car for the week. Maybe i'll get a new car for X-mas. This is long and that's all i got to say so leave me lots of comments. Later.

"The Loser"

Yesterday was a million years ago
In all my past lives I played an asshole
Now I found you, it's almost too late
And this earth seems obliviating
We are trembling in our crutches
High and dead our skin is glass
I'm so empty here without
I crack and split my xerox hands

I know it's the last day on earth
We'll be together while the planet dies
I know it's the last day on earth
We'll never say goodbye

The dogs slaughter each other softly
Love burns it's casualties
We are damaged provider modules
Spill the seeds at our children's feet
I'm so empty here without you
I know they want me dead

I know it's the last day on earth

Hey everyone, i'm about to take my parents to the airport real fast so they can be on their way to Florida so yeah. Don't have much time to talk but this is what's going on...snow days have been boring, i beat my highest score in bowling today (it's now a 277), and i will be using my stepmoms car in less than 2 hours. Alright, they are here now so i g2g. Leave me as many comments as last time please lol. Later.

"The Loser"

Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued

in a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

She fucking hates me
trust
she fucking hates me
la la la love
I tried too hard
and she tore my feelings like I had none
and ripped them away

She was queen for about an hour
after that shit got sour
she took all I ever had
no sign of guilt
no feeling of bad, no

In a trapped trip I can't grip
never thought i'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

that's my story, as you see
learned my lesson and so did she
now it's over and i'm glad
'cause i'm a fool for all i've said

la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
and she tore my feelings like I had none
she fucking hates me

So what's goin on everybody? Today we got out of school early because of the snow and i'm glad. I didn't have my homework done for my last class lol. Last night was the NHS Christmas party/scavenger hunt and that was kool. After that i went to Jordans and hung out with her and Melissa for awhile and then i had dinner. That's about it so far and Saturday i get to have my stepmoms car for a whole week while she and my dad are in Florida. PARTY AT MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So yeah, i'm going to go now. Later.

"The Loser"

I don't care anymore if I let you down
I believe that I need to be free
I'm so used to my life with you around
I don't know anymore....the real me

And i thought i found my self today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you

All these tears that I've cried
You must be tired of taking care of me but
Its what you do best and
I'm a liar cause really its what I need

And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you

Someone like you
Someone like me
Maybe its change that set you free
Free....

And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you

And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you

Well, it seems in my life that whenever something starts going up...something has to bring it back down again. Good news is i got myself another girlfriend. Her name's Jordan and i love her very much. Bad news is i don't have a car anymore. My engine is shot and it wont start or anything at all. Hopefully in the near future when my family can afford another car i can get one. I can't trade this one in anymore since it wont work but my dad has a few connections he can try out. Well, that's about it. Later.

"The Loser"

Yeah, so i'm sick and i hate it. Stayed home from school today though and woke up at about 11:30 or so. Yesterday i had my bowling tournament in Joplin and i did pretty good...at least at the end. I don't know if you guys know what i'm talking about but on my 3rd game that i bowled, i left the 8-10 split 7 fucking times!! That is almost impossible to pick up, let alone try and get 7 times in 1 game! I was pissed off so bad. But on the way home i felt like shit and today i feel even worse. Well, i'll end it here. Later.

"The Loser"

Dead men lying on the heart of the grave
Wondering when savior comes, if he is gonna be saved
Maybe you're a sinner into your alternate life
Maybe you're a joker, maybe you deserve to die

They were crying when their sons left
God is wearing black
He's gone so far to find no hope
He's never coming back

They were crying when their sons left
All young men must go
He's come so far to find no truth
He's never going home

Young men standing on the top of their own graves
Wondering when Jesus comes, are they gonna be saved
Holy to the little bishop, tells the king his lies
Maybe you're a mourner, maybe you deserve to die

They were crying when their sons left
God is wearing black
He's gone so far to find no hope
He's never coming back

They were crying when their sons left
All young men must go
He's come so far to find no truth
He's never going home

Welcome to the soldier side
Where there is no one here but me
People all grow up to die
There is no one here but me